This post has been long overdue, almost two months in fact. I have been writing and re-writing it in my mind but never had the time to actually post it. So finally here it is.

About a week after Jianna turned two, she stopped breastfeeding altogether. My heart cracked, I think, and I had to hold back some tears. This milestone told me that my little girl is no longer as little as I think her to be. It told me that she no longer needed me in the same way she used to.

For the next three nights, I pondered on it. Each time, I would get sad and even tempted to remind her of our nightly routine. But I held back. I knew she had to stop at some point, and that time had come. Now, it was up to me to learn to let go.

There will be more letting go’s in the coming years. And I know my heart would crack a little more each time. That is part of being a mother. That is the hard part of being a mother.